Yesterday I was feeling particularly vulnerable, with news of Corona breaking out in our health care center and having to do without nurses again. On top of that there are two lesions on Emily’s skin which won’t heal as well as her having greater difficulty getting her balance when I lift her up.
So I become quiet and listen. “Peace I give you, not the world’s peace ie no problems ! No I give you My peace within the problems, peace that comes from trusting Me implicitly to lead you and protect you within the trouble”. As I am sitting allowing His peace to settle around me I see in my imagination a huge warm cloud, like a blanket enveloping me and I realize He is showing me how vast and yet intimate His love for me is and I remember Ephesians 3:17 ff “I pray….that you may……grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love which surpasses knowledge – that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God”.
“You have my love – my complete love – words cannot fully describe My love – it covers you with my benevolent grace it embodies compassion, care, grace, discipline, guidance, forgiveness. Every action and thought I have towards you is governed by this attitude I have towards you”. And then I am reminded of the reading I had on the day of lockdown from Psalm 57:
“Have mercy on me, oh God, have mercy on me, for in you my soul takes refuge..
I will take refuge in the shadow of your wings until this disaster has passed.
I cry out to God Most High, to God who fulfills His purpose for me”
My reading for the day Psalm 146. This is part of the last 5 Psalms in the Psalter which are dedicated to praising God as it seals the whole book. So vv 1, 2 and 10 bracket the Psalm with praise.
But here comes the thing, look at vs 3. Yeah, who am I really trusting in at this time? I mean really, when he rubber hits the road in that instant. Not in general, but in each part of my life?
How much of my trust is in men/women? They will soon not be there anymore.
So then David reaffirms why His trust is in the Lord in he next few vv. I soak that in, Read it through, read it again. Meditate on it and remember to remind myself of that all day.
As I close I muse “so even David found himself trusting in me rather than His beloved God sometimes”.